Enablers Anonymous: The Messiah Complex.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Enablers Anonymous: The Messiah Complex The need to be needed. It is not like filling that little space in your empty nest when your children visit you over the holidays. It is not the feeling of pride and sense of self-worth when your company offers you a promotion or hands you a certificate for a job well-done. It's not even the feeling of being desired by another human being as a companion, or as a lover. It's not heart-warming. It's not relieving. It's not comforting. It's not "butterflies." It's sick. Let me just think back for a moment - back to a time when you did not need me. I mean, I know I'm not godly, or "all-that," but when has there been a time when my existence in your reality was not significant? I deny altruistic intentions, as my self-worth lies in your acceptance of me and my gifts. How much is your dime worth? Where am I now? Manipulate my flimsy mass into your mold. Everyone will be sure to see me now. I am programmed to your station, to your command. I'm committed to making you well. Together, we can do this. Just believe in me. Believe in us. Working together to reach our common goal of wellness. My flimsy mass and your elastic surface. Your surface is radiant. It is comfortable. There is plenty of room for me to fit into this costume. Everyone will see me now. And we will be well.