black winter

with tears in my eyes, i must apologize.

i'm not really myself tonight.

i'm in so deep.

but maybe it's that i'm more

myself than ever before

and it terrifies me.

i can't see my own face as it's frozen in place

when my hand is on the trigger.

and i can't feel the wind as it brushes my skin

so enter black winter...

let's make love under the unsettled dust of our history

envious of flirtatious mystery

catching my tongue then

from paper to pen

i'd rather have brick walls in boston.

that's where i could not hear the sounds of my freedom

when it echoed in constant rhythm

i held it in and

just kept breathing it in

suffocated by steam that december brings -

thinning my blood but clogging my veins,

invading my spring....

with tears in my eyes, he apologized

as i returned new jersey to jersey

black winter draws near to a former frontier

and it terrifies me.

let's make love under the incipient skyline of

philadelphia

while the dark chill embraces dreams of california

what energy it brings when diamond records spin

around the urban masquerade ball

not quite settled as those rouge, crunchy petals

they've been dead for weeks,

they are still beautiful...

2007